boyfriend and my weekend

Hey guys!

I read your comments on my last post and let me say, first of all, thanks alot for caring, it means alot to me :) Now, some of you talked about his age. Well he is 18, therefore an adult, but since he is still living with his parents and is still dependent of them financially, he still has to do what they want. Of course, it sucks and is unfair but he doesn't have a choice. However I agree with the fact that they are probably going to soften their rules the more serious our relationship gets and i really hope that they do.

I also saw that I didn't mention that he lives in the United States, which is something to consider seeing the mentality is different there.

Anyways, it isn't worth it to dwell on it, we have to live our lives, I might go see him on the 12th, 13th and sleep at a motel. It's going to cost alot but it's worth it to see him, plus it's close to valentine's day :)

On another subject, I spent the weekend at matt's house and we watched the NHL all-star game and skill competition. It was great and was really funny so we spent a great weekend. Matt , another friend and me all slept in Matt's bed (don't worry guys, we didn't do anything) and his dad went to wake us up in the morning and was like wtf... but he was laughing and didn't react badly.

Well that's about it, I have nothing much to do these days so there isn't much to talk about :P

seeya!

Bad news

Hey guys

First of all let me say that my computer was being fixed so that's why I haven't posted in a while. I'm sorry

But alot has happened since the last time I posted. I'm not going to talk about everything because that would just be silly. Let me just say a couple things that are really important. I'm seeing my friends alot and it's really cool, they help me keep my good mood. Also, I am still with my boyfriend but that's where the bad news lies.

See, his parents just decided that he can't ever have me overnight and he can't come here overnight either. But since he lives 4 hours away, it's a quite annoying to go over there and leave the same day. Basically they made sure we wouldn't see eachother as often as we'd like. It is already difficult to have a relationship with someone who lives far away or with someone when his parents don't agree but a combination of both is really hard. I hope we'll make it anyways and I'll try to come see him on the 12th. We'll see what happens from there I guess.

Let me just say that as much as that situation annoys me, I don't want to give up. It seems that alot of times when I thought I was going to be finally happy, life just slapped me in the face. Well this time it did, but I'm taking it like a man and I'm continuing my journey to happyness. I'm not going to let other people ruin what we have and I don't think he is either. Love is stronger than that. I really hope we can work something out and I think if we do stay together, we'll end up stronger in the end.

I just hate how unfair this is. I don't know if it would have been different if he was straight and would have wanted to invite a girl over. Maybe they would have worked something out or maybe they would have reacted the same way. Either way, I don't think getting in the way of two people loving eachother is not something that should be done, even if it's the name of protecting your child. I mean, his parents will be there, I'm not a big threat.

Anyways, we'll try to work something out so we can still see eachother. I miss him alot but I love him too much to let go.

seeya guys.

Notre-Dame-de-Paris

Hello guys!

The start of this post will be about a french musical, which if you haven't seen, I highly recommend. It's incredibly good and is posted all over youtube. If you don't want to get bored with it tho, you can skip that part :P (I change topics after the video)

Me and my friends from drama club have been really obsessed with the musical "Notre-Dame-de-Paris" from 1998. We were all pretty young when it toured but we all went to see it with our parents. We all have different favorite characters which is really funny. All of the characters has one of us who love them including the 2 evil ones, Frolo and Pheobus. My personal favorite is Fleur-de-Lys. She isn't very important but is a really interesting character and I found I had misjudged her in my youth. I hated her when i was young because she wanted Esmeralda to die but I didn't realise the implications of what was the norm at that time and the psychology of her character. It was in 1482 and Esmeralda was said to be a witch, hence Fleur-de-Lys wouldn't trust her at all. But the main problem between the two is Pheobus who was engaged to Fleur-de-Lys and left her for Esmeralda before being stabbed by Frolo. Everyone thought it was Esmeralda who had stabbed him tho. Of course if you're a girl and your fiancee leaves you for someone else and than gets stabbed by that person (that's what she thinks happened) you are going to hate that person. Also, it was the norm to kill people for that sort of crime at that time, therefore she only went with what she knew. So yeah, she is not a terrible person and I like the fact that in the musical, she is a girl who can at least stand up for herself but can still forgive people.

Okay sorry about that I really got carried away there :P Here is a video of her song "La Monture" where she tells Pheobus that she doesn't trust him anymore but will love him if Esmeralda is hanged. There's an english translation so you'll be able to understand even if you can't speak french :)

On another subject, I talk to my boyfriend alot on skype and I love every second of it. I'll try to go see him by the end of January but we'll see what happens. Thinking of him helps me alot in drama club tho, when I have to act like I'm in love, I just think of him and it's easy as can be. I'm really happier than ever and my friends are seeing that and are really happy for me.

My sister on the other hand is worried. I'm pretty sure she thinks it won't work out because he lives too far away. She has always been a bit pessimistic so I don't think too much about it. I think she remembers too well her breakup with her ex who lived far away. But just because it didn't work out for them doesn't mean it's not going to work out for us. I told her that but she still seems skeptic about the whole thing. I'll talk to her more about it at some point.

Anyways, that's all I have to say. You guys have a great day :)

seeya!

It's official!

Well guys, I have a boyfriend!!! :)

I had the best day of my life on sunday, everything was perfect. We went skiing and the conditions were perfect. Also, I brought one of my friends and he went with his best friend and everyone got along really great. But the best thing was, we cicked so much, the more the day progressed, the closer we were. We kissed a couple time (first kiss in public with a guy) and it was just awesome.

He is really cute and his eyes were amazing. I got lost in them when I looked at him. He is also the sweetest guy I ever met and makes me feel so good. I don't want to say too much about him because I want to protect his identity and everything but just take my word on it, he is just perfect :) We also have alot in common especially in how we are in a relationship. We actually agreed on everything so far :P

So yeah, that's pretty much all I had to say. I also wanted to say thanks to all of you guys for the support, it really means alot to me.

Seeya!

BIG news

Hey guys! It's been a while.

I'm sorry I didn't post for a while, I've been busy during christmas time and than I didn't feel like posting and than it completely went out of my mind.

My bad.

But I come bearing huge news.

I met a guy online and we gave eachother our skypes and talked without webcam for like an hour and a half and with webcam (nothing pervy, just talking face to face) for another 5 hours. He is gay (yay), is incredibly nice (double yay), is cute (triple yay) and is actually interested in dating me (quadruple yay). So yeah, I've been thinking about him alot lately. It's like we're dating but we've never actually met in real life yet. It's probably going to be official tho because I get to meet him in person tomorrow.

So yeah HUGE! We also text alot now and we talked on the phone thursday. I'm really excited, he's so freaking awesome! He lives like 4 hours away though so I'm a little down about that but he seems so perfect that I don't really care. He also lives in the US so thank god i have a passport.

It's the first time that I've been interested in someone who felt the same way about me and I am actually falling in love with him. I just can't wait for tomorrow and I promise to keep you guys posted on that.

In other news, I just spent 3 days with my friends who all came over to my parent's place (we were 21) and it was really awesome! I played outside every day and now I'm sore everywhere. The bad thing about that weekend though is Julien, he knows that I have someone and he still tried to make a move on me. It didn't work of course because I don't have feelings for him anymore and I like someone else but it's a really dick move.

Also Sam finally talked to me today about why he wasn't talking to me as much. He thinks I make jokes about him too much. The thing is, I said I would stop joking about him if he did the same and he refused. Than I said that he can't expect people not to make jokes about him if he makes jokes about them and he said that was true. I also told him that I had done ennough for him to prove that I didn't mean anything serious with those jokes which he said was true also. Than he had to leave so the point of the convo is still out there but I dont think it's going to get settled soon because he knows I am right and will try to avoid the subject now.

So that's that, I've had some problems with some of my friends but with most of them everything is perfect. And I am in love so I'm just so happy right now. I don't even care about Sam and Julien, they can both decide to hate me tomorrow and I couldn't care less. I just want to go out with my new guy! :)

Me happy!

Seeya guys! (I'll tell you how it goes tomorrow)

Merry Christmas!!!!!

Hey guys!

Merry Christmas to everyone who believes in it and/or celebrates it!

Fo others who celebrate Hanukkah or Festivus (there are people who actually celebrate this now... crazy!) or something else, I also like you so I'm going to say happy [insert holiday here]

I love this time of year because everyone is merry and happy... No actually scratch that because some people including me are merry and happy :P

Let me do my little rant here, my sister got sick today and every little clinique is closed on Christmas Eve so I had to take her to the hospital, luckily there was almost no one there so we didn't wait forever. But since it was Christmas Eve I decided to wear a Santa hat. I was all in the holiday spirit and happy and smiling but out of everyone who saw me, only one guy actually smiled. The rest just looked frustrated and in a crappy mood. So yeah that was sad. At least the guy who smiled was the only cute one I saw :P

But anyways, they probably have their reasons for being grumpy so I'll let them be. On another note, here are songs that I listened to today. They are awesome :P Some are christmas songs and some aren't but I still wanted to share them as I like them very much!

So my first song is pretty old and is by Jackson five. It's "I saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus". My sister and me love the part where Michael (who sings lead) says "And I'm gonna tell my dad!" best thing EVER!

The second song is "What a Wonderful World" by Louis Armstrong. I really love it because it really boosts your mood when your down and I don't know why but to me I like listening to it during the holidays as everything seems wonderful :)

The third song is "Come Fly With Me" by Michael Buble, it started playing on my mom's computer and I just randomly started dancing in our living room :P Seriously tho, I never really liked Michael Buble much, probably because my parents listen to his music a bit too much but I was really in the mood for it tonight and I had a great time. This also marks the first time someone from my family actually saw me dancing for real (usually they just see me when I act like an idiot).

Finally the last song is "Happy Christmas (War Is Over)" by John Lennon. When I put this song on while we were decorating the tree, my sister, my mom and I all said that this was our favorite Christmas song. I really like it, it's positive and sends a message of peace while talking about christmas. This is also one of the few Christmas songs I listen to at any time of the year.

So that's it for my Christmas post! I'll see you guys some day, right now I have gifts to finish wrapping and than I have to go to sleep to have an awesome Christmas day tomorrow!

Friends

Hey guys!

Yesterday I had a party with the drama club from my school (I think I mentioned that I was in drama club but maybe I didn't :P). Anyways, it was at my school and it was really fun but we had to leave kinda early because at 11 pm they close the school. So me and 5 of my friends (including Eli) decided to hang out anyways. We went to one of my friend's place but than we were making too much noise so we went to a bar instead. It was really fun and Eli and some other girl were really drunk.

We talked about alot of stuff including politics but I won't bore you with that :P but also the 2 girls that were drunk are both bi so they started kissing randomly. It was kinda awkward but meh. Plus there was a couple there so me and another guy (who is straight) were like the only ones who werent kissing someone at one point...

Than the guy who is in the couple Eli went to sleep over at my place because both of them live really far. So we were in the car and they tell me like the guy's secret... He is bi... Yeah

And he hasn't told his girlfriend yet... Which kinda sucks for her to be honest. We have similar taste in guys tho :P So yeah anyways, I found that out and now I hope his girlfriend won't think he did anything with me while he was sleeping over cuz she's a really good friend of mine and i would never do that. Also, I don't know how she'll react exactly because you know, he kinda kept it secret for a while. So yeah I don't know how that's going to go.

Seriously tho, the guy looks gay, he really does so it's not that shocking, it's more weird that he spent alot of time just completely denying it and than when he talked to me about it he seemed so... accepting of it and natural, like he knew it for a long time and had told some people for a long time. So yeah it's just weird.

But yeah, out of 6 people tonight, 1 was gay, 3 were bi and 2 were straight... Now that's rare!