Happy holidays... Not really

I was supposed to finish school today! YAY!!!

But I didn't (fuck). Yeah my teacher told us that we had until friday to finish our philosophy project so I was like, I'll do it during french (because I had already done my french text and I was only going to ask my teacher some quick questions). So I get to french class and we weren't alot because it was only like 1 on 1 help. The teacher spent so long talking to me about how my text wasn't good for an x number of reasons that I just ended up spending almost the whole class (of 2 hours) listening to it. After that i had drama, which i'm supposed to have breaks in. Well we skipped the part that I wasn't in so I didn't end up having a break and I came out of it so mentally drained that I don't have the guts to do either my french or philosophy works. So basically, I am stuck with both of those projects still to do and I'm just tired of it all. I feel like handing in some crap thing without any effort.

So yeah... I thought I would be done with school right now when I got up this morning. Things didn't go as planned...

There ya go!

Just a quick post to say i got my motivation back and things are going great for my french paper i have to do for tuesday. I'll probably finish it by tonight if things go well, and they are going well!

Yay!

Also, I'm talking with Matt over MSN and he's actually helping me with my work lol, kinda funny since it's usually the other way around. I like it tho!

Anyways I'll go now because I have to finish it. I know exactly what I have to do and found my ideas!

Motivation come back!

Hey guys!

I finish school really soon but I have lost my motivation again. I have to do my homework but you know when your not motivated it doesn't go really well...

So yeah, if I don't get it back I'll have bad grades for the projects I have left and I really don't want that to happen you see...

In other news Julien is starting to try to get me again. It didn't work out with the other guy so he's back at trying to get me. I don't know how to react but I am deffo not falling for him again. Seriously, fuck my life.

Date

Hey guys, I had a date today with some guy I didn't know and well, it didn't turn out quite interesting. It got me thinking about it and to be quite frank, the only thing thats not going my way in my life is that I don't have a boyfriend. But I'm pretty sure I should meet him normally and not try to make it happen. Dating really isn't for me, maybe it works for some people but not me.

So yeah, it was boring and just plain weird. I don't plan on going on dates for a while, if I don't have a boyfriend, so be it, I'm still happy with my life and overly thinking about it won't help.

well thats it. Seeya!

Over at Matt's

Yesterday after the storm stopped I went over to Matt's house which is close-ish to my parent's (I'm at their place right now). As you guys might know, Matt is mainly straight but has gay leanings. He never did anything tho like he never even kissed a guy (and only kissed one girl and was with her for like 2 years).

Anyways, he has this weird thing for Nick even tho they only met twice and to be honest I don't see how they would work anything out since neither of them has a car and they live freaking far away from eachother but that's another story.

Now, I keep getting mixed messages from him because he's obviously tired of being alone and he always has an msn status about love. Like when i was over we were like hanging out as usual but when I got on msn tonight after I came back to my parent's his msn status was something about love being an illusion and I was like dude, what happened in the like 4 hoursbetween when I left and now?

I don't know if it's about me (and i kinda hope it isn't but would like to know if it was) or about nick (there again, hope it isn't) or about someone else. I just really wonder what is up!

Well, I just can't understand guys, it's been a problem ever since I came out :P

seeya!

HUGE snowstorm

There is a huge snowstorm in Quebec right now it's pretty crazy.

We have had 25 cm of snow so far in Montreal and it's supposed to continue snowing until tomorrow at midday. What makes it crazier is that the wind is very strong so the snow all gets bunched up at some places where it's litterally impossible to go because the snow is like as tall as you :P

I had plans to go somewhere pretty far today but it's dangerous so instead I'm just staying home and it kinda sucks.

So yeah, the snow isn't really cool but I can still have fun in some other way. I'll try to stay positive in this season that I hate so much!

In other news, I finish school next monday youhou! I'm pretty happy about it and I'm all excited.

Anyways, I don't have much else to say so seeya!

Welcome December

You guys might know that I hate winter.

I hate driving in winter conditions cuz you have to go slower and be much more carefull, and sometimes you might slip a little and it's scary as hell. Also you it takes more time to leave since you have to get the snow or ice off of your car and it takes a while before your car gets warm...

Also I don't really like winter sports, I like skating but I suck, and skiing is pretty cool but I find it gets old after a while, plus it costs a fortune.

Also its cold as hell all the time.

BUT I welcome december for 2 reasons.

Reason number 1 : The end of school.

I am finishing college this semester so I'll have an actual full semester break when I'm done. This is really exciting and I just can't wait! I'm also finishing quite early this year so all in all, I'm pretty excited!

Reason number 2 : Christmas

It's the same thing every year, everyone is happy, you get to see your family (and I love mine) and friends that you don't get to see quite often. There are also alot of parties but not the people getting drunk kind, the people being joyfull and singing and dancing type. I like them alot more!

Therefore, I want to say welcome December, I love this month. I am just going to be pissed of when January comes along.