Blogs

Well it looks like half the blogs I link to are finished :P

Craziest one of all is hockeykidmn.com, rumors are that mikey is actually a 40 something year old man who pretended to be a 17 year old. That's just weird and I find the story very strange. I don't have all the information but I really don't know what to think about that. I hope it doesn't hurt people too much tho, he was huge in the blogging community.

Gay Andy says he will stop blogging so that's another one, at least theres not a huge scandal surrounding that. We'll miss you!

Rike stopped blogging like a month ago and I still have him in my link :P

Mirrorboy stopped before I started but he still posts sometimes and I have a crazy hope he will return so I'll keep him on the links anyways :P he's the reason I sarted blogging and his blog is the first one I really followed.

And last but not least AJ also stopped but I'll also keep him because I hope he'll return also.

Well that's it, I'll redo my links at one point but for now they are still there. Who knows, if they come back before I take their links out it'll be worth it :P

Seeya!

PS. if you have more information on mikey I'd like to know, I'm really wandering whats going on.

Habs won

OMG!!!! Quick post to say the Habs won against Washington. Montreal eliminated the best team of the NHL so now we'll see if the Canadiens are good ennough to beat the odds and come out with a Stanley Cup in 2010! I do hope they get it but yeah, it's still very far away. Now we have to beat Pittsburgh. Man if Montreal takes out Ovi and then Crosby, theres nothing to stop it!

I'm happy about that victory even tho Washington is one of my fave teams, my home team is still more important to me. Plus we still have 2 canadian teams left in this race to the cup!

I also want to point out that my predictions were correct exept for New Jersey and Washington who both got beat in the first round... but tell me who could have predicted that? :P At least I nailed the West!

Yay!

Okay, here are my predictions for the second round.

Detroit will beat San Jose

Chicago will beat Vancouver

Pittsburgh will beat Montreal

Philadelphia will beat Boston

We will see what happens, honestly at this point it's really hard to judge how a team will react to their win in the first round. I do hope I'm wrong and montreal goes through but hey, I have to be impartial :P

My new pick for cup champions is Chicago! I kinda want them to win because that would mean 3 guys having gold and Stanley the same year, which would be kinda amazing.

Also, I went to see a play that one of my friends was in, went to see it with Eli and it was pretty cool. We were pretty crazy tho, me and Eli together is really explosive because we both have alot of energy! :)

Anyways, I gotta go!

Seeya!!!

Here are the news

Okay, lots of little things to point out here!

First, I have my computer back so I can blog and read blogs again! yay :)

Second, We were alot more going out actually on friday because Sam and Julien ended up coming. Sam didn't enter tho because he had a weird fight with his girlfriend over the phone when we were getting there and he just took the metro back home. This sucked but we were able to have fun anyways. It was pretty crazy because we were at a gay bar and we were 3 gay guys, 1 bi-curious girl and 2 straight girls. It seems like everytime I see him dance, Julien takes a hold on me, its really amazing how good he is. I didn't end up flirting with anyone tho so theres no news there.

Then Maude went over to my place for the weekend. My parents met her and loved her (of course) and she also met my uncle who thought she was my girlfriend :P yeah thats going to be a funny story if he finds out I'm gay.

Well I dont think theres anything else so I'll leave you guys to read more interesting stories :P

seeya!

Going out

I'm going out again tonight, this time with Maude, Nick and two other friends. We are going out in the gay village! Who knows maybe I'll meet someone :P

Talk to you guys later!!!

Seeya!


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My computer broke down

Well yeah it litteraly died yesterday when I was watching Glee with Maude and I can't Even turn it on right now. It really sucks because that computer is like my link to the outside world. Now I dont have msn and i can't watch anything funny or good. I dont have TV either so I am bored out of my mind right now. I'm bringing it to get fixed tomorrow so we'll see how long it is before I get it back.

On another note I'll be going out on thursday and friday so I wont be bored without my comp. I love you guys, I hope all goes well!

Seeya!!!


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Glee

Okay, Julien was really obsessed with the show Glee and was starting to annoy me so I started watching it like yesterday and its actually good.

Okay I only watched the first episodes so those aren't the best but it still got to me. Right now I have seen the 3 first episodes and Kurt's coming out scene is adorable! It reminds me of mine a little (exept mine was in a bathroom :P). My favorite characters right now are Kurt, Mercedes and Quinn but of course, I only saw 3 episodes...

Anyways, I think it's pretty good and now it's got me hooked. I can't sleep right now so I'll watch the fourth episode :P

seeya!

Lonely

Man I post too much right now but I am really lonely, I'm far from everyone right now, being at my parents house, and my friends that could help me feel better aren't on MSN. I really feel like I'm cut off from them and it sucks.

Julien is on but I haven't talked to him since we agreed to be only friends and not do anything else. I'll miss holding him in my arms but I think it's for the best.

It really seems like everything is going bad right now. Eli and her boyfriend, Sam and his girlfriend, Maude and her boyfriend, me and Julien. Everything is just going down. It's like all the whole gang is just falling appart and the closest bonds between us are nothing.

Everyone is trying to help when someone is having problems but since more than half the people at the party were having problems, we all tried to help eachother but it didn't really work and now i don't know how the majority of the people feel but I feel broken inside, Sam is questionning himself as to why he's with his GF, Maude had huge problems with her BF but is trying to arrange those right now, Julien cried because he didn't know what to do on friday but he never wants to tell me how he really feels.

It seems like everyone is lost and confused exept for a handfull of people. If there ever is a party like this again, this gang is done and definately falls apart.

Julien

So I know I didn't say what happened at the party and I might make a post about it later today but right now I don't want to.

This is just a short post to say that I called it off with Julien because of what happened. I feel shitty right now and I was really angry at him friday but now I just feel empty and broken inside. I am glad I'm not angry at him anymore because I really hate that feeling and this feeling is more innocent, even tho it sucks at least I'm not going to do anything to hurt him.

I needed to talk to someone yesterday and started talking to my mom but my sister called for some homework she had and my mom helped her out (she's at the end of her semester and it's really hard) so I went back to my bedroom but was really unable to go to sleep. I don't know how long it took me but it was much too long.

well seeya

Kayaking

Well I know i said I would post about the party but honestly everything about it was so bad, I acted like an idiot and so did pretty much everyone else that I do not want to talk about it. I don't feel like it and therefore since you guys wanted to know more about kayaking, I'll post about that because I love it and it might cheer me up a bit to talk about it. I'll probably tell you guys later what happened to the party but really nothing good came of it.

SO! Kayaking!

Its pretty much the best sport ever :P The goal is simple, go as fast as you can in a the distance of the race. There are alot of distances. I race 200m, 500m, 1000m, 2000m, 6000m and 10 000m at provincials, but at some other regattas there are other distances (the 100m is CRAZY!!). I am better at long distances usually. My best result ever in individuals was in a 2000m some time ago. There are 3 provincial competitions but only 1 national. The first provincials are or the older athletes and are also the qualifiers for the nationals. The distances raced there are 200m, 500m and 1000m (I race all 3). The second provincial championships are for younger kids (14 and under) but obviously I don't go there. The last provincials are like in october and it's the long distance where I race 2000m and 10 000m. I don't race 6 000m anymore but I did when I was younger.

The sport is actually canoeing/kayaking so it is in fact alot like canoeing. There are 7 types of boats. There are kayaks for 1, for 2 and for 4 and canoes for 1, 2, 4 and for 15. There are alot of differences between kayaks and canoes. In kayaks you sit in the middle of the boat and you paddle on both sides. In canoes you kneel on 1 knee and you only paddle on 1 side. I am really bad at canoeing tho and i only race in the one where there are 15 people in it (which is crazy). I am a kayaker at heart and I paddle in single kayaks, doubles and four-man kayaks.

In a K1 (single kayak) a 200m takes about 37 seconds for the best guys (the ones that won nationals in the Senior category). In mine it is about 40 something seconds for regular guys (like me). In 500m at worlds its about 1 : 37, my category does about 1 : 50 something. In 1000m at worlds its about 3 : 27 and in my category from 3 : 55 to 4 : 40 in the final of provincials (which I was in).

Long distances vary alot so times are weird (and alot of times not even calculated).

Man I feel like I wasn't very clear :P too bad, if you guys don't understand you can tell me, I'll try to clear it up (and if you don't want to hear about it you can tell me 2)

Seeya! (btw it did cheer me up a bit)

Oh yeah!

I forgot to tell you!

I went back on the water this tuesday! So I'm paddling again! (paddling is the love of my life :P) I was like jumping after that practice! I'm probably going back on the water tomorrow so yay! :D

Yeah short post but it's about a subject that is like super important to me!

seeya!

Hey!

Well I'm back to usual boring posting about my personal life :P

I went out with one of my friends that I hadn't seen in a while yesterday. We drank beer and hung out and walked around the gay village of montreal. It was pretty cool. We left early and I went back to my place. But Nick and another friend went to pick me up and I went to spend the night with them (not dirty :P). So we drank a little more and I was kinda tipsy. We talked to people on Chatroulette lol that was fun. Some people are total creeps but others are really nice.

Anyways I didn't really do anything usefull today but theres a party tomorrow and like I can feel that something big's going to happen. Most of us feel it but we're not quite sure what it is. But like everyone from our gang is there so that means that Maude, Nick, Sam, Julien, Eli, me and alot of other friends are going to be at that party. So keep in mind I'll probably have huge gossip this weekend :P

Julien might not come actually because he's sick today. He talked to me a little on MSN and said he didn't feel good all day. He's going to sleep early tonight to try and get better but if he doesn't feel well tomorrow he won't be coming. But if he comes theres a chance that maybe he'll go *sleep* at my place after ;)

Anyways we will see what happens.

Also thanks for trying to help me out it really does help me :D I love you guys!

Oh yeah, one of my friends who isn't in our college gang wants to like set me up with some guy! (if the guy is as hot as that friend, I realy can't wait :P) But yeah that's good but he probably lives very very far from me.

Well seeya!

Confused

Well I might as well post it now because I don't know what to think anymore.

So I don't know if you guys know the kinda sexual orientation grid thingy where it says that sexual orientation goes from -7 to 7, -7 being completely homosexual and 7 being completely heterosexual. I consider myself a -4, -5ish. I might try it with a girl at one point but it would have to be a girl that : I like, I don't know much, is my type and at a moment when I'm ready and probably very very horny (and maybe drunk :P).

The thing is, I'm gay theres not really any doubt anymore about that, but there are like 3 types of gays right? Tops, Bottoms and Versatiles.

Well that's where I'm fucked. Julien says I'm a top and to just come to peace with it. But that's because he knows I think he's cute and he looks like a typical bottom (and he is) and that the guys he finds cute arent my type.

The thing is this, I have 2 types. One that is like Julien (a little younger looking, not that strong, without body hair, etc.) but I can actually find my type guys that are kinda older than me (in their middle/late 20s) who have some muscle but not too much and a little fat. Which is totally weird because these guys aren't considered cute or hot or whatever but I like it somehow. But less than the other more cute type.

And I don't like the hot sorta type that most people like. You know the guys who are usually in their 20's with a whole lot of muscles and perfectly tanned. I find it repulsive for some reason.

So basically I don't know what I am because I like the sort of bottom type alot but I feel attracted somehow by a type that is usually top. But honestly we tried it and I really didn't like anal so I can't really be a bottom now can't I?

I feel so confused right now.

Seeya

Series

The hockey regular season comes to an end. My hometown team, the Montreal Canadiens are 8th in the east, which means they will go against the No. 1 team of the league, the Washington Capitals. Montreal has no chance against this team therefore I just hope we get to play a game 6.

So! the series are

Washington VS Montreal

New Jersey VS Philadelphia

Buffalo VS Boston

Pittsburgh VS Ottawa

San Jose VS Colorado

Chicago VS Nashville

Vancouver VS Los Angeles

Pheonix VS Detroit

I think that Washington, New Jersey, Boston and Pittsburgh will advance in the east while San Jose, Chicago, Vancouver and Detroit will win the first round in the west. Of course I am not really good in hockey and we will see what happens.

For my top teams, I hope Vancouver wins because it's the only really decent canadian team left. However I think that the cup will be won either by Washington, Chicago or New Jersey.

New Jersey is now a team that I really like, ever since they got Kovalchuk. With players like him, Brodeur, Parise and Elias, this team is pretty decent. So I will go for New Jersey as the Stanley Cup champions this year but we will see what happens. Washington have dominated the regular seaon so it's a pretty tough team to beat.

Well that's all I have to say about hockey :P

seeya!

I love my friends!

Well yesterday I had an awesome time. It's the day I celebrated my birthday with my friends.

I woke up when Maude rang at my door. She brought my gift with her on the bus and it was pretty big. So she gets here with this huge orange bag. Turns out what took most of the place was balloons :P. Her present for me was a fish! I haven't had one since a really ong time and now my friends are betting how long it's going to last. Most think it's not going to last a week :P

Anyways, that was pretty cool of her and she went through so much trouble. She's trying to prove to them that I can handle it and I don't plan on letting her down.

Than I went to my class which was really boring. When I left I just didn't want to hear about math anymore for my whole life. I went back to bed after because I didn't really sleep that night. About an hour later, Eli, her boyfriend and another friend came to my place and just went in my bed with me. I love being with them and just hanging out. After that, I spent the whole day with friends. We were 7 to eat pizza at my place for my birthday and fitting 7 in my little appartment with all of us eating was pretty crazy!

Than we went out. Sam stayed at my place a little because he was going there with his GF and she had something. So they got there about an hour late. Plus he was using my cards to enter because he's not 18 yet so we couldn't really enter together. I had alot of fun. Some of my friends got together and bought me a huge vodka bottle which I'm going to start drinking next friday :). Some of them bought me drinks so I drank 3 glasses of sangria, 1 sex on the beach and 1 shooter while I was there but I drank 2 beers at home later on (I'll talk about that a little later :P). So we hung out and had fun all night.

But here's where it gets interesting! Sam was telling me that I wouldn't dare french kissing one of our friends (a girl) and of course, to prove him wrong, I did (btw I kiss alot of people, it doesn't really mean anything for me if your single, which I am). Than my other friend says : are you going to kiss me 2? So I also kissed her. Than I don't remember who but someone said that Sam wouldn't dare kiss me. And i was like : no he wouldn't dare. Sam however gets up and goes right to me and french kissed me. It wasn't very long (nor very good) but he did, btw his GF was there.

So at one point we decide it's time to go home. So we all go to the metro and leave. Sam and his GF go back to my place (they slept here) and Sam decides to really get me drunk (he failed lol). So he decides to play a drinking game. All the one we had were for alot of people but since we were only 2, they sucked. So I get the idea of going on chatroulette (a website where you chat with webcam with strangers) and ask people there : who's drinking? When they choose you, you drink. For some reason they picked me twice more often than him. But when I was at like a beer and a half and he was at 3/4 of his, his GF gets like weird and he goes talk to her. Turns out she was really drunk so we just went to bed after that (I took time to finish my beer :P)

So yeah that was my night. It was fun and was kinda interesting. Pretty much everyone thinks Sam is bi now but like I told them : we shouldn't pressure him. If he is, he's going to accept it at one point and come out by himself. Telling him he is would probably just make him angry and actually slow down his coming out. And if he actually isn't well than this will just piss him off. So basically my strategy here is to let him find out by himself but be there for him whatever happens.

So that's it, oh yeah btw Sam and his GF are here right now but they are sleeping. Oh yeah and no I didn't talk to Sam about our problems, I'm probably going to do that next week.

so yeah that's it. Happy Luc says seeya!!

Night alone

Yep, Julien ain't coming over so I'm spending the night alone instead. it's not that bad, I don't really need to see him, it's just that I would really have liked to. Sam almost came over but he found out he had a formation or something so I really ended up alone. Actually Julien didn't even tell me he wasn't coming, Sam did. Speaking of whom, Sam is going out with his girlfriend again. I don't know how i feel about this because if she keeps hurting him like she did I'm really going to be pissed at her. But for now Sam is happy so that's good.

Because I was alone, I used some time to go on msn and that was a really good thing! I talked to one of my friends (who is a closted lesbian) and we are going out together on wednesday! Yay! It's pretty cool because I miss her alot and we haven't seen eachother in awhile. So a little bad thing brought a good thing!

Maude and her BF aren't going too good right now. They spent the weekend together and it went so-so. I do hope the best for them. If they aren't happy together maybe they'll be happier as friends, I don't know. I just wish that whatever happens, they'll both be happy. They are just the cutest couple sometimes, I look at them and I feel like a happy end is possible for everyone because they look just like they found the right person forever. But theres other times when you see them and you see they are both hurting. I just don't know what to think right now. I love them and wish them the best.

Oh yeah Sam acts as if we don't have problems anymore which is a total lie. I have stopped doing what annoyed him (which wasn't alot) but he still refuses to talk to me about why I got angry. So the things that made me angry aren't dealt with. He'd better talk to me soon...

Oh well... at least he's trying to help me out with Julien, that's a nice gesture :)

Seeya!!!

Easter weekend!

Yeah, easter weekend is pretty awesome!

I went to a friends surprise birthday party on thursday and that was pretty cool. We had fun and she was really surprised, very well arranged and stuff.

On friday I went to eat somewhere with Maude, Sam, Sam's ex (btw it looks like they are getting back together), and two other friends. Than Sam and his ex went somewhere and the rest of us went to get Maude's boyfriend at the metro. We than spent hours just hanging around in a park because it was really hot. It was such a nice day! Than me, Maude and her boyfriend went to my place and we hanged out there until the party. Well you know what happened at the party so I'm not going to say it again :P

Than on saturday, I went back to my parent's place and we went to see some family and give my cousins easter gifts. We than went to get my sister and went somewhere to eat for my birthday (it's soon but I'm not telling you exactly when it is, I'm going to be 19!) We went back to my parent's place and I went on MSN. Sam asked me what I was doing on sunday and I was like : I'm at my parent's place. He said : yeah so? what are you doing tomorrow? So basically he drove an hour and a half and went to see me on sunday (with his ex of course...)

So on sunday, before Sam got here, I went to eat lunch with my extanded family. I went back with my mom and Sam was at my parent's place, waiting for us (he knew we were away at lunch). We hung out all day and went to get our other friend who was nearby. Than we decided to go eat near our lake. So we went there and went on a rock.

We were all ready to eat when we see my dog on the ice of the lake. The ice is melting at this time of year and it was not safe at all. I was trying to get my dog to get back on shore but she didn't listen to me and than the ice broke and she fell in. She tried to go back to shore but was unable to break the ice that stood between her and the shore. So I went in and broke the ice. At that point she was just in shock and was like looking at me with a "save me" look. So I had to go up to where she was (had water over my belly button) and got her and made her go back to shore. When I got out I was shaking from everywhere, the water was so very cold.

So we went back inside and I changed :P we spent the rest of the day together and talked alot. It was fun. The next day when we got up, Sam and his girlfriend left to go back to the city. I spent the whole day with my friend.

Right now it's the next morning, he is sleeping and I'm just waiting for him to get up. We are going back as soon as he does and than I have to do homework and I have to clean my place up because Julien is supposed to come over on wednesday.

After wednesday here are my plans : Going to a play of Eli on thursday, going out to celebrate my birthday on friday, going back to my parents place to celebrate my birthday with them on saturday.

After that its back to the routine :P

Well, seeya!

Nice partys never end well

It's like a rule! Everey time a party is decent, it ends in a bad way somehow, usually someone ends up really depressed or crying (or throwing up :P) This time there were like 3 people who ended up depressed, all of them close to me.

First off, Maude's boyfriend. Maude and him are having problems and he wasn't realy feeling like going to a party and he was just sad pretty much the whole time. Maude and him talked a little and his mood kept on getting worse. The poor guy is really having problems but he never talks about them. I like him and i really hope it goes better for him soon.

Maude was down towards the end since she knew something was up with her boyfriend and things were just getting worse. She is questionning alot of things right now and she doesn't really need to question weather or not they are happy together. It's a really sad thing when you see two of your close friends whose couple is having problems. I really hope it goes better. They deserve to be happy, honestly they really do.

And last but not least is Sam. I don't know if he left being happy or unhappy but his mood changed alot during the night. His ex GF was there (he came with her) and he was like trying to win her back. She basically kept on changing her mind the whole night. That sucks because he kept getting his hopes up and than was happy and talkative, next thing you know he's talking to her and than going off into a corner somewhere to be alone. Last time I saw him he looked like someone with a broken heart and than I went outside and he left with his ex without saying goodbye. Yeah, you guessed it, he didn't come over tonight so I'm alone. It's better like that anyways cuz I need to talk to him about our problems before I get close to him again.

BUT, if we take all that away, I had a very great time, I danced with alot of people, including the first time I really danced with Sam (he sucks :P). I danced mostly with Maude and another girl though. There was a stripper who came as a birthday present. I think it was the first time I actually saw a girl bare chested in real life. I don't see what the big deal is :P It was funny though and I liked it. After seeing that I am even more convinced of my sexual orientation.

Well thats it, seeya!

You guessed it! it's again about Sam

Yeah of course, it had to be about him. So basically after totally ignoring me tuesday and wednesday (and me doing the same to him) he started talking to me today. I of course was my usual nice self and I didn't reject him even though I had said countless times that I would :P

We had a party anyways tonight and it was pretty fun. The thing that was even more fun is that he wanted to see me more than I wanted to see him during that party so I wasn't just there hoping he would pay attention to me. He was having his fun and I was having mine. I actually caught him staring at me a couple times 2 hehe.

And guess what! He kissed a guy! Yep, I don't know why but he did. And he did it while I was talking to them but at that exact moment I was looking at some girl and I missed it. He was a little disappointed that I didn't see. I don't know why, it's either because he wanted to make me jealous or because he likes it when he has attention. Either way it was a total fail :P

Theres another party tomorrow but this time, Sam plans on drinking. And since he's coming to my place before the party (and going there with me) he's probably sleeping at my place. Thats what he plans on anyways. So tomorrow is basically the time I'll talk to him and we'll settle our problems because honestly, I am really getting annoyed. He doesn't want to talk about it but like, I'm angry at him and I also want to know exactly what I do that pissed him off, if he doesn't tell me, I can't really change it and it'll always piss him off.

The thing is, for dealing with problems, he is a stereotypical guy. He doesn't want to talk about it and just wishes they go away. Well, you know what, they don't! So stop hiding from them and deal with them. You'll live a much happier life that way.

Btw, I haven't forgiven him yet, it's just that I don't ignore him right now. I am still angry and do sometimes say things to him so that he knows that. For example, today we were talking about how gays are always hugged alot by girls. At that time, Maude was like on Sam and I said : Be carefull Maude, Sam is going to reject you because he looks gay with you.

Maude found it funny and Sam gave me a look of "it's funny but I won't laugh because it's about me".

I talked to Julien and he changes mood really fast, as much as he was like pissed at me 2 days ago, yesterday he was all joyfull and normal and talkative. I am really wondering what's up with this guy but meh, we're not that close so it doesn't really matter. As long as he still wants to see me :P

Oh yeah, I could explain a little my problems I had with him. They are really random and unimportant. Basically it's because we talk alot on msn and when we see eachother in private, and we really get along great. The thing is, he doesn't want people knowing we are doing it so he acts as if we almost didn't know eachother at all when we are in public. I tried to talk to him alot on saturday but answered but wouldn't like really talk to me. And basically he was angry because he felt I wanted to "make it public" even though I only wanted to talk to a friend, which he is. He was also on Sam's side on our whole fight thing but I changed his mind about that.

So yeah now that it's almost all cleared up with Julien and that I hope it's going to be cleared up with Sam soon, my life is pretty much back to usual, which means me being happy and running around jumping and being too exited.

I am also seeing Matt this weekend so that's going to be fun! I miss him alot and he is super supportive. It's fun being around him, we make alot of jokes and have fun and we never got a fight. Like never ever, it's basically impossible to be pissed at Matt because he really isn't one to look for trouble. I really miss seeing him every day.

well, I hope it all goes well, so seeya!