hmmm random weekend

Well saturday I saw my friends and we went to a sugar shack. It was pretty fun and I met a girl (who is a friend of a friend) and I'm probably going to be living with her in an appartment next year so that was interesting. She is really nice and i had a good time.

But of course, I have to talk about Sam as he is *again* at the center of things. I got to my place on saturday and found that Sam and another friend came to my house friday night and cleaned up. Sam did this of course because he felt bad. Sam wasn't supposed to be there at the sugar shack but of course he was. He sat next to me and we were having a really good time. At one point we were talking and the subject of "we have problems" was coming up. So I told him " we're going to talk about it early this week, this isn't really the place, but I'm still mad at you." The girl we met (my future rommate), heard this (she knows I'm gay). She looked at us and said "Oh vous avez une chicane de couple?" (your having a fight in your couple?) So yeah, Sam wasn't happy that she thought he was gay and going out with me. So he was moody for the rest of the evening.

After eating there was a little dance party and our gang is pretty crazy about those so we went and were pretty much the life of the party (exept for Sam who doesn't dance). At one point i went to see him and I like hugged him and he pushed me away. He said that he's tired of having a guy that always touches him in front of everyone (yeah he's pissed because it's in public, but in private its okay...) and I was like "okay, fine!" And right then and there, Julien goes to him and does like a lapdance kinda move and Sam smiles. Like he just tells me that he doesn't want guys touching him and Julien does this (which is way more than what I do) and he fucking smiles. I said "Oh yeah, but thats ok right?" and I just left. Okay btw Julien is a really good dancer, like its crazy, I was just staring and looking dumb. Eli told me to close my mouth lol.

So yeah I got pissed at Sam again because he overreacted. Speaking of overreacting, Julien is angry at me now (this is happening live, omg! :P). Yeah he said that I wanted to talk to him and see him too much, which is true, but he is ignoring me too much while we are in public also so... Also, Sam didn't want to talk to me about our fight so he talked to Julien who then talked to me, accusing me of being too much on Sam. We had a long conversation about it which ended in me winning my point and proving him wrong.

Arg my thoughts are really random but basically, Julien is right on some levels and wrong on others (especially in the level of his reaction). Sam is pretty much wrong on most things, I do have things I need to do adjust with him, but he mainly brought it upon himself (it's not only me who thinks that, pretty much everyone and I even convinced Julien who was really for Sam on that one). So now I'm just thinking about how I just expected too much out of my litle relation with Julien and how I thought Sam was better than what he really is.

And yeah, I'm back to square one. I have a best friend who distances himself from me and no more sex life. At least for now...

seeya